WOahhhh, I'm 37 weeks today!! I wasnt too good about this whole blog thing, maybe i'll get better!!! But I seriously can not believe this baby will be here within the next month!! It seriously has gone by way fast, I mean there's been times that have dragged, but for the most part.. I cant believe how fast its went. With things getting so close, my nerves have really started to to get crazy..I usually never have trouble falling asleep at night, as Danny would say, "I just knock out" ..but lately I find myself laying there for while..thinking about every possible thing that could happen in labor, what its going to feel like, what he's going to look like, wondering if everything is going to be okay, hoping he's going to be healthy..so many what ifs!!! & in reality non of this worrying is going to matter!! I just have serious fears about labor, it seriously is the scariest thing to me, I think its all of the "unknown" cause really until you experience it ..you have no idea what to expect..everyone can tell you their story, but EVERYONES labor is so different..you can never compare!! I'm getting really uncomfortbale, its so hot out..my ankles no longer exist ..I now have Cankles..& huge ones !!! I shouldn't complain cause my pregnancy really hasnt been all that bad, & I'll actually miss being pregnant!!! I got "checked" for the first time at my last appointment..& oh my..that hurt!! my next app is tomorrow & I'm NOT looking forward to it, but atleast I know what to expect this time..at my apppointment..I was almost a 1 (i know nothing really) but I was just happy to hear there was some kind of progress & I'm hoping for more progress tomorrow :]] Also, since I have gestational diabetes..I have to do Non stress test once a week until labor, its kind of nice though because we get to monitor his heart rate & even get an ultra sound each week.. his heart rate was PERFECT at the last one, they check my fluid in the ultra sound...good fluid is from 10-20 & I was at an 11, so barely okay..hopefully it doesnt get too low!!! Me & Danny actually made our first trip to labor and delivery last tues, I came home from work and sorry TMI but my underwear were WET, & then all day I kept having little bits of fluid coming out...I thought maybe my water had a sloow leak..& I didnt want to risk it, so we went in to get checked, I was so nervous to "bug" them at the hospital, they were seriously soo nice & so willing to help me out!! they monitored the baby for a while & checked the fluid to see if it was my water, the nurse was so sweet..when the test came up negative she said, "dang it, your cute..I was hoping you were staying!!" little does she know I'm going to be her worst nightmare in labor!!!! ;) She really made me feel so comfortable though, and that little experience eases my mind just a little bit more about labor!!! Our shower is this saturday & we are super excited for it !!! Well at the blogging rate I'm going, my next post will be when he's here :]]
